This is interesting, because I've read essays from gay men who have said similar things about their interests and crushes when they were tweens or very young teens. I know more than a few gay men who were fairly "twinky," perceived as not traditionally masculine, when they were boys, and who still probably aren't all that traditionally masculine as adults.

They talk about having been boy-idol obsessed when they were in middle school, with the obsession sometimes meaning Tiger Beat posters in their bedrooms, or sometimes secretly indulging in crushes.

"But, dude," I said to a friend once, "you're into big, muscular, hairy guys. When did your attractions change?"

"Never," he responded. "I wasn't boy crazy because I found teen idols sexy. I didn't. I was boy crazy despite that. Even back then, my erotic fantasies were a totally separate thing. They were about men, not the cute boy celebrities I idolized."