Thank you very much for this important story! I'm glad your patience and kindness with yourself led you to a place where you can write this.
I came within a hair's breadth of entering conversion therapy myself, as a teenager, and I shudder to think what the consequences might have been.
Nobody should have to suffer through everything you did, from your traumatic abuse as a young child, to the harmful religious practices imposed on you when you reached out for love and healing.
I am so sorry!
I'm also so glad that you've reached a much healthier place, and that you can share your experiences in important ways.