Thank you for writing this, Eden. It’s very important, and of course you have the right to be in the closet if you need to be. I wrote about that on coming out day, as a matter of fact.
Yes, coming out and living out are important from many reasons, but no one should ever feel peer pressure to come out.
The intersection of marginalized identities can make coming out more difficult and unhealthy, as you demonstrate here.
I do wish you much success, however, in working for and finding a fulfilling and loving life.
If you would like to share more of your story on Prism & Pen, a Medium LGBTQ storytelling publication, we would be delighted to have you.