No I don't know anything about your personal situation, I only know what you said. What you said was unjust and wrong, and you need to stop saying things like that. Your personal situation in China has no bearing on the discussion at hand or on LGBTQ persecution in the United States, which is an injustice that needs to be fought whether you like it or anyone likes it. And the fight starts with awareness, again whether that upsets your day or anyone's day. I don't know why it's important to you to counsel people to be silent, but one thing you can be sure of is that I will never take your counsel. Ever.