New Brad Chapter: Dying In

Brad is 21, gay, and wrecked by the death of his boyfriend Luke. He’s fighting AIDS and cops by protesting with Act Up … to stay sane and plugged in to love. But at one die-in, dark thoughts seduce. How will Brad manage to cope with his loss and the worst of times he finds himself living in?

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Author’s Notes —

The history of Act Up is patchy at best, not least because many leading members didn’t survive. Some of what history is left has already coalesced as dust motes from the air, to form myth.

Like Brad, many of my own memories are hazy. The only sharp images I have of this action somewhere on Long Island are of sparrows exploding out of trees when the bullhorns sounded, of the cops lined up with shields and batons, and of Brad pressed against me on the grave we “died” on.

I hope this chapter serves as something of a personal history, as an impression of a powerful movement, and a reminder that all history is intensely personal at its core.

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Archive photo from Act Up Chicago. What was this man thinking and feeling? Had he lost someone?

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— Jim

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Writer. Runner. Marine. Airman. Former LGBTQ and HIV activist. Former ActUpNY and Queer Nation. Polyglot. Middle-aged, uppity faggot. jamesfinnwrites@gmail.com

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