I see your words, but they convey almost no meaning to me. I read your story, but as hard as I try, I can't understand what you're trying to say. Spiritual practices (like talking to "gods" or ghosts, magically healing the sick, predicting the future, assessing people's personalities by their birth dates, etc) are all practices that rely on supernatural belief systems and that almost always make at least some empirical claims. Those empirical claims can invariably be shown to be false. (i.e. astrology, tarot card reading, intercessory prayer.)

So, it's beyond me how any atheist could accept spiritual claims. Not only do spiritual claims depend on belief in supernatural phenomena, they are demonstrably and indisputably false.