I often feel the same, Kitty Hannah Eden. Born in the American heartland, but having lived for years in Berlin, Manhattan, and Montreal, I never seem to know where home is or how it feels.
Traveling to former haunts helps, because I find a little bit of home everywhere I go. I never feel it all at once,all in the same place, though.
Certainly in my current “Walden Pond” existence, I’m not home, I’m just visiting — even if I stay here for the rest of my life.