I can really connect with this. I’ve often been loath to try things that I know that I won’t be good at. But when I step outside my comfort zone, that’s when richness really happens.
I’m not a natural athlete by any stretch of the imagination. If they had had special ed PE back when I was in school, I probably would have been in it. ;-)
But in my forties, I started running. I did it because it made me feel good. Just being out in the Autumn sunshine, enjoying the outdoors. Kind of like your spa thing.
And after a while I learned the most incredible thing. I actually did have a spark of athleticism within myself. I nurtured it and let it grow, and a couple of years later I ran a marathon and put in a respectable time for my age group.
Running added richness and depth to my life that I would never have experienced if I’d been afraid to do something that I knew I wasn’t good at.