Hey Brian. I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a rough time. I hate it when people I care about are hurting. I hope you feel better soon, because your voice is special and powerful and deserves to be heard.
You’re more important than your writing, of course. I mean, you as a person.
I don’t know how things work for you, but when I’m feeling really low, which I have been lately, writing can be therapeutic. It’s harder to get motivated to do it, but at least for a while, my spirits soar when I get creative and productive.
An artist is sometimes only fulfilled and complete when making art. You and I are both artists, and that’s a truism that might be valuable to ponder.