Finding a really great therapist is difficult, I know. And losing them when you need them the most can be traumatic. But a mental health professional would probably remind you at this point that you're dealing with a common phenomenon called transference, which is a sort of emotional attachment to your therapist. There's absolutely nothing wrong with feeling that way, and some psychologists say it's a necessary part of therapy sometimes.

They also say it's better (more effective anyway) to try to keep something of an emotional distance, but if you can't, you might be comforted to know that transference usually fades rapidly when therapy is interrupted, and developing a new, positive therapeutic relationship is more likely than not.

Sorry, I know I'm probably sounding clinical and detached, but all I'm really trying to tell you is that feeling the way you feel is perfectly normal, and that you will very likely feel much better soon.