Eric, your comment moved me tremendously when I read it before falling asleep last night.

I’m not sure why. I think it triggered memories of alienation and otherness that I’d forgotten about.

I remembered taking it for granted that society would deny me full participation and inclusion, that I would forever be the outsider peeking in.

I don’t feel entirely like that anymore, but I certainly did, and I didn’t even necessarily feel badly about it then.

I do now, for my younger self.

Anyway, your comment stirred all that up. Thank you for your thoughtfulness.


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